Beginner

Well, this is the first time I have tried this.  I've been told I should write a blog, but I don't really know why.  I honestly don't think too many ppl care to read what I think, but who knows.  If anything it would be good therapy for myself :0)

So today is friday September 24, 2010.  I am not going into the office today becasue Im fucking tired, though I have a client I have to go see at 4p today.  I love what I do, but as always, I do too much.  I over extend myself ALL THE TIME when it comes to my job(s) no matter what I do, I take on too much, then I become resentful.  Am I trying to fill a void? Probably, but hell at least Im not shopping to fill this void any longer.  I have been single (and I MEAN SINGLE) since November, which is  when I moved to NC.  Which I guess is ok..but I ponder, will I ever get married and have my own children to screw up? I really want kids to practice how to screw more shit up, Im good at that sometimes lol. So ppl at my job have told me, you need to write down what you want and dcont want in a relationship.  Hummmm is there validity to this I wonder?  Ill have to think of that criteria and get to ya.


My question is: ya know Indifference can be a sad place to live. Do we actually live there? Or do we just use it as a defense mechanism to cope with the reality of pain? Is it an emotional band-aid or is it a sign of internal change?

So welcome to um, I guess welcome to my blog.  Pretty soon Ill use this as a venting tool, or to comment about the bullshit I see and hear in this strange city called Fayetteville..
peace love and 40oz of 45